Tonight was a bit of a depressing evening...I am not always reminded of how I think it should be when that one perfect man comes into my life. But tonight I was reminded...of how I've always dreamed that the perfect one would just walk into my life unannounced and I will look at him and know, that he had been placed by God...and God has a special plan for us. In my mind I somehow always had it playing like a movie...but sometimes you just get discouraged. You keep wondering why God is taking so long it happened so much earlier for your other friends.

Not alot of people understand what it is like to have people all around you but still feel like you are completely alone. Well I'm surrounded by family here at home from college. But it still feels like something is missing. Well in my depression I came up with a theory. God makes you have that whole for a while so that when he does fill it, you are more grateful to him for filling it. And you will love and cherish that relationship for as long as both of you shall live.

A married friend once told me that when she got engaged, She wanted to laugh, cry, and throw up all at once. I don't know how it will feel for me, but I know that God has someone perfect picked out for me and that when God is ready to make a filling he will.

Sunday School was awesome today! I started out with only one student there and so I just started the lesson then two sisters walked in after I had started the lesson. So I have been trying to get them to memorize their memory verses. And it hasn't been going to well and so I figured today would be no different. So today, the sisters walked in and I continued with the lesson and one of the gals raised her hand and said "When are we going to do memory verses?" I was in shock So I ended my lesson and then she quoted all our memory verses up until now. I was so happy! I am so revamped about Sunday School now.

So..now I am working as a NA. I work from 7pm-7am...and those are very long 12 hours...well actually it depends on the night. My charge nurse at night is very nice, the one I normally work with...her name is Amy. She doesn't cuss and is a "Christian." We have good times together and she is a very experienced nurse, I've learned a lot from her. I enjoy learning more and more each day about how to care for people medically better. Hopefully after going back to Oklahoma I will be able to get on the waiting list for going through the LPN program at the local technology center. I have learned a lot about my personal relationship with Christ this past few months. I've learned that even though the days seem long and the months even longer. God always comes through!!

Today is another day at work....I work from 4-7 again...on church night...they never give me any reasonable days off. Anyway...tomorrow I work from 6 am to I have no idea when probably 7pm hopefully not though because I have CNA class tomorrow night. Grrrrr.....Gotta go to work now.

Until Next time,

KT